Mental Health Resources and My Story of Recovery from Postpartum Anxiety and Depression

share this post:

share this post:

47.6 million adults manage mental illnessMay is Mental Health Month. As someone who has recovered from postpartum anxiety and depression, this is a topic very close to my heart.

I’m far from alone in my experience with mental illness — nearly 50 million adults in the United States alone manage a mental illness every day. And right now, in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic and lockdown, many millions of people are suffering.

Even folks who don’t have diagnosed disorders are experiencing sadness, anxiety, loneliness, stress and frustration like never before.

Mental health struggles in the time of coronavirus

Whether you have a formal diagnosis or not, these times are hard on everyone. There are many factors at play.

But before I call out the factors I want to be clear: It can be terrifying to look at our fear and traumatic feelings. But if we don’t look at them, we get stuck in them. When we call out our fear, we can see it as separate from who we really are. Calling it out and naming it is the first step to relief.

So while you’re reading the ways we’re struggling right now, take a deep breath and get honest with yourself about what is up for you. Give yourself permission to be going through a tough time. Honor your feelings and your experience. We’re all in this together.


We humans are social creatures, but in order to protect ourselves and our communities, we must isolate ourselves right now. Finding support becomes more challenging when we can’t just get together with friends or hug our families.

It’s very important that we keep our distance, but we can’t deny the psychological toll of quarantine. If you feel lonely or miss people, that’s something all of us can relate to in some way.

Work and the economy

Another source of fear and anxiety is the state of the economy. I don’t need to rehash the statistics here. We all know they’re bad. Many people are out of work and can’t go out to find other work. Many others are risking their health to do essential work.

Still more are working from home, carving out office space on their kitchen tables or in their basements, helping their kids with distance learning, caring for babies and toddlers and elderly parents, trying to keep the house somewhat clean amid the chaos.

Even if you’re in a relatively good position, the stress is still serious. You don’t have to dismiss it or tell yourself, “I’m lucky, I have no reason to feel bad.”

Physical health

Health anxiety is another big one, especially for people who are on the front lines, who have risk factors that make them particularly vulnerable to infection, or who are suffering from COVID—19 or have a loved who is.

Plus, the pandemic has interrupted routine health care for so many people. Elective surgeries, important check-ins, fertility treatments, dentist appointments, prenatal care and more are the kinds of appointments being delayed or dramatically changed right now.


We’re dealing with a lot of unknowns, and the onslaught of news (not to mention rampant misinformation) can be overwhelming. Many questions don’t yet have answers.

Despite all the uncertainty, we can still reclaim our power and remember that we’re always being guided. If you’re looking for help or resources right now, or just want to know that you’re not alone, you can trust you landed on this post for a reason.

Mental health is important for everyone

Regardless of whether you have a diagnosed mental disorder or you’re just feeling the enormous stress of the times, mental health is paramount right now. (This also goes for anyone struggling with addiction, which I address in this post as well.)

In this post I want to do a few things:

  • Share my own mental health story
  • Show you that you’re not alone
  • Provide accessible resources for mental health care
  • Share tips for how to help yourself and others right now

I’ll start with my story, and then all the resources are linked at the end of this post.

My story of postpartum anxiety and depression

I had my son, Oliver, in December 2018. I was fortunate to have an easy pregnancy and the labor and delivery experience I’d hoped for. When Oliver and I came home from the hospital, we were both doing really well and had a lot of support.

Then, three months later, I started to feel my anxiety flare up in weird ways. I started worrying about things like which diapers to use and whether my son was sleeping okay.

At first I brushed them off as the kind of thing every new mom worries about. But I couldn’t deny that the feeling behind them was one of terror and panic. I wasn’t just concerned — I was obsessed.

My anxiety only got worse

My anxiety got worse with each passing week. I couldn’t sleep. I had panic attacks. I became agoraphobic. My insomnia was so bad that I was scared to even attempt to fall asleep.

Scariest of all was the fact that when I looked at my son, I didn’t recognize him. This disconnect plunged me into depression.

I tried to fix the problem in all kinds of ways. I called every doctor friend and wellness expert to ask for their opinion. I took supplements for anxiety and sleep, but nothing worked. I was so sleep-deprived that I was having meltdowns regularly.

Hitting bottom with postpartum anxiety and depression

Gabby Bernstein smiling | mental healthI hit bottom in May 2019. On Mother’s Day I was so depressed, anxious and exhausted that I said I wanted to kill myself. But I still didn’t let myself get honest about what was going on.

Later that month, I went to Manhattan with my husband and son because I had a talk scheduled. The night before my talk (we were staying at the apartment we rented in the city), I didn’t sleep at all.

For the first time in my 15-year career, I canceled an appearance.

As I sat in my living room breastfeeding my son, I felt ashamed and beaten down as well as afraid. Finally, I knew it was time to surrender. I couldn’t go on like this any longer. I prayed for guidance.

That afternoon, my therapist called me to intervene. She said she thought I had postpartum anxiety and depression, and she suggested I talk to a psychiatrist and get on medication.

Her recommendation alarmed me. I’d been brought up homeopathic, and prescription medicine was totally foreign to me. But I’d prayed for guidance, so I stayed open. I made some calls and met with a psychiatrist who specialized in maternity and postpartum mental health. She diagnosed me with postpartum anxiety and depression (PPA and PPD).

I was relieved that I finally had a diagnosis and a healing path. But I realized I was also ashamed of my diagnosis. I felt ashamed that I couldn’t help myself. None of my tools had worked. I also felt ashamed that I was suffering from mental illness, because the stigma made me feel broken and inferior.

Accepting help and speaking up

I had a choice. I could stay silent and ashamed — or I could speak up. The voice of my Higher Self was guiding me to open up about that unspoken shame in order to help others. That same day, I posted a video on Instagram where I shared my diagnosis and postpartum experience.

Posting that video was a huge relief, and I was so grateful to be able to serve other women who have suffered from postpartum anxiety or depression. Since then I’ve continued to be very public about my experience. I’m committed to erasing the stigma and shame for myself and others.

I’m no stranger to stigma. In my early twenties, I suffered from addiction. In order to get clean, I had to overcome the stigma around addiction, ask for help, show up to meetings and do the work.

Every ounce of effort was worth it: This year I celebrate 15 years of sober recovery. You can read more on the spiritual tools I use in my sober recovery, and below, in the resources list, I include links for treatment and support.

Once again, in 2019, my willingness to ask for help and do the work cleared my path toward healing. It wasn’t always easy, and I still had resistance. I had a hard time being patient and wanted to force myself to recover faster. I had to remember to surrender every single day.

The gifts of recovery

Sometimes the great stuff can coexist with the tough stuffMy recovery from postpartum anxiety and depression involved therapy, my spiritual practice and psychiatric care — including medication. I was really hesitant, at first, to accept the medication part of that equation. As I said earlier, it was totally unfamiliar to me. And there’s still plenty of stigma around psychiatric medication.

But today I’m so grateful that I didn’t let my fear or shame hold me back… because medication saved my life.

Suffering from postpartum anxiety and depression was one of the most difficult experiences of my life. But one beautiful lesson I learned through my recovery is that the great stuff can coexist with the tough stuff. ⁣

Now I can look back and see how my darkest struggle was the catalyst for my greatest transformation. I’m able to forgive my experience and release it. Best of all, I can celebrate my resilience.⁣

I stand here today, joyful, healthy, confident and strong, as a result of my willingness to seek help. And while I’ve recovered, I still tend to my mental health daily, the same way I tend to my physical health daily.

Anxiety, depression, panic, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, personality disorders, PTSD, addiction disorders, eating disorders, and every other type and expression of mental illness — they don’t care who you are. They don’t care how spiritual you are, where you come from, what you look like. If you’re suffering with one or more of these conditions, it doesn’t mean you’re broken or inferior or weak.

In fact, living with these conditions requires extraordinary strength. Recovery, however it looks for you, however messy it may be, is something to be deeply proud of.

It can be really hard to reach out and advocate for yourself, especially if you suffer from one of the more stigmatized and debilitating disorders. But you are worth it. Your life, your well-being, your health, your happiness, your very existence are all worth it.

The spiritual side of mental health

Gabby Bernstein walkingWhile my PPA/PPD recovery may have started with a medicated path, it was my spiritual faith that helped me get to where I am today. The medication helped me feel safe. But my spiritual and personal growth tools are what led me to the next level of genuine safety and trust.

Through my devoted weekly therapy sessions, I dove deep into healing modalities such as Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) and Somatic Experiencing (SE).

Each day I woke up and prayed to be supported and guided. I built up my meditation practice to be a sustainable source of peace throughout the day. I made sleep hygiene non-negotiable by turning off my phone two hours before bedtime and putting all my devices in another room.

I also created a very powerful nighttime ritual. I take a bath, journal and listen to bilateral music.

When dealing with anxiety, exercise is one of the greatest ways to move the stagnant energy out of your body. Our body holds our fear and we have to move to release it. I walk four miles uphill every day along with other online workouts.

I know it may sound like a lot to stay mentally well, but that’s cool! My inner peace is my highest priority. When we make that commitment to ourselves, the rest of our life can flow.

In times like these, we must prioritize our mental health. I recently heard Sister Joan Chittister say that her daily prayer was meant to punctuate throughout the day. I feel the same way about my spiritual practice! Read more about my daily spiritual schedule and learn how to create your own.

Mental health resources

Mental health statisticsI’ve been very fortunate to have access to excellent medical care, but I know this can be a profound struggle for many people. Sometimes it feels impossible just to know where to start. So here I’m listing mental health resources that my team and I have gathered over time.

First, I want to make sure you know about my free Anxiety Relief Workshop. In it, I share some of the methods that really helped me recover from anxiety and depression. These are simple and very effective tools that you can bring into your daily life and use regularly. Click here to access the workshop.

Undoubtedly there are ones we’ve missed, so please feel free to share a comment below with any resources we should investigate.

General mental health

COVID—19 mental health resources

Be sure to check out resources available in your state, city or other local community, in addition to the links below.

Postpartum anxiety and depression resources

From the American Psychological Association:
If you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or your baby, take action now: Put the baby in a safe place, like a crib. Call a friend or family member for help if you need to. Call a suicide hotline (free and staffed all day, every day):

  • National Hopeline Network: 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
  • National Strategy for Suicide Prevention LifeLine: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). There are hotlines for every state.
  • PPDMoms: 1-800-PPDMOMS (1-800-773-6667)

Call your psychologist’s or other licensed mental health provider’s emergency number. Call your doctor’s or other primary health care provider’s emergency number. Tell someone you trust about what you are feeling; ask him or her to help you take these steps.

(Source for the above guidance and resources)

Emergency numbers

Important note: If you’re in a dangerous or life-threatening situation, call 911 (see below for emergency services numbers in other countries).

Emergency numbers outside the United States:
Canada: 911
Mexico: 066 or 911
UK: 999 or 112
Ireland: 999 or 112
Netherlands: 112
Germany: 112
France: 112
Australia: 000 or 112
New Zealand: 111
South Africa: 112 on mobile phones
See a complete list on Wikipedia.

Suicide prevention

United States
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, available 24/7: 1-800-273-8255
Chat online at
For Spanish speakers: 1-800-273-8255 then press 2
For LGBTQ youth: 1-866-4-U-TREVOR

Veterans Crisis Line is 1-800-273-8255 or TTY: 1-800-799-4889

Crisis Services Canada: 1-833-456-4566

United Kingdom
Call Samaritans 24 hours a day: 116 123
More suicide & mental health helplines in the UK

Australia helpline: 13 11 14
More suicide helplines in Australia

Suicide and mental health helplines

Click here for more suicide prevention resources, including international hotlines.

Domestic violence, physical abuse & sexual assault

RAINN is an organization for helping sexual assault survivors. Free, confidential sexual assault hotline is available 24/7: 800-656-HOPE (800-656-4673). You can also chat online with a counselor.

The National Domestic Violence Hotline is free, confidential and available 24/7. Call 1-800-799-7233 or TTY 1-800-787-3224.

You can also talk to an advocate in their free, confidential online chat, also available 24/7. The website is or in Spanish:

Addiction recovery Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration. The main hotline is 1-800-662-HELP (1-800-662-4357). It’s confidential, free, and available 24/7 in English and Spanish.

This helpline is for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders. This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations.

Click here for the Alcoholics Anonymous website.

You can also find free online addiction recovery support from In the Rooms.

Eating disorders

The NEDA Helpline is 1-800-931-2237. Find more helpline info here.

Other resources include the eating disorder hotline and the eating disorders helpline.

How to support yourself and others in daily life

There are a number of ways you can support yourself and others during the crisis. Here are some helpful links:

As soon as I choose to see the light in the dark corners, I redirect my power toward what I wantDuring times of crisis (especially when the #1 thing we can do is just stay home), we can feel powerless. One way to regain our sense of power is to help others! If you’re able to, here are some ideas: Check out this Washington Post article for ways to support nonprofits helping vulnerable populations. And did a beautiful job rounding up safe ways to help your community.

If all you can do right now is focus on your own mental health and well-being, know that it’s enough. We must take care of ourselves first. And remember that as you feel better, your energetic shift lifts up everyone around you.

How are you supporting yourself (and others) right now?

Spirit Junkies, I want to hear from you! If you feel called to share, leave a comment on this post and let me know how you’re supporting your own mental health during this time.

And if you’re also caring for others, whether that’s your own family/friends or the greater community, please feel free to share whatever resources you’re relying on now.

You are not alone.

Remember that no matter what’s going on — during this crisis or long after it — you deserve mental health care. If you suffer from a mental health condition, you are NOT alone.

Help is available, and there are brighter days ahead. The first step is to reach out, whether that’s calling a helpline, a doctor or a trusted friend.

The Universe has your back now and always.

Read or leave comments

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

  1. Thank you for this vulnerable, open and honest post. I have experienced PPA & PPD, as well as post partum psychosis – all 3 of which required “all hands on deck” to get better. I often say it is no this OR that form of medicine, but this AND that form of medicine. For me, a combination of naturopathic, homeopathic and pharmaceutical interventions, as well as ongoing counselling and support has been the key to regaining my mental health. There are 4 aspects to us as individuals – physical, mental, emotional and spiritual so it makes sense that all levels are supported. It is also important when mental health issues arise post partum that hormones are checked as well. Your post is a great resource – thank you! Dr. Christina Bjorndal

  2. Hello Gabby Team,

    I would like to know if Gabby Bernstein has ever reached out to doctor Daniel Amen, he is a neurologist and psychiatrist doctor that takes brain scans to see the type of trauma people might have. I believe he is also considered a functional medicine doctor. I cannot afford him even on a medical credit card. I am so curious & determine your figure out why soo many women go through this. I don’t feel we have enough research out there. Maybe someone like Gabby can help us figure this part out.

    I too went 8yrs undiagnosed which I believe I had postpartum I probably still do who knows because my gynecologist and doctors sure don’t. My story is very similar to a lot of people that have gone through the same monster of emotions. Anxiety, panic attacks, insomnia, 1 yr of denial going through all the books, prayer, meditations, yoga, therapy, essential oils lavender is the best, etc. I suffer from my periods but no doctor has taken me seriously because they say I’m too young at 42 to have perimenopause but yet I feel all the symptoms. I continue to fight everyday keeping my head in hopes that someday some doctor will care enough to do more research on women’s hormones/brain/nerves system & how they can sometimes do a number on us.

    I was very happy to know that someone like you is out here fighting and believing, you give us hope.

    Thank you, Ana

  3. What a truly wonderful human being you are Gabby , always there to help others in such an inspiring way .We can all learn so much from you in so many ways and not only help ourselves but pass all this goodness on
    Love and Light

  4. I can’t thank you enough for being such a strong resource for people. It took me years to recover and fight on my own and I did it! I wish I had your support 6 years ago with 10 panic attacks a day. Mine was so bad that I literally changed my career to now help families with postpartum, PTSD, anxiety and depression, just through my story and the tools that saved me as well. It’s such a powerful balance and we are not alone! I’m so impressed that you recovered as fast as you did and are able to hold your career together. I wish I found my spiritual practice when I was fighting 6 years ago, but I found it 2 years ago and that was the last missing piece to the puzzle. Hopefully one day I can meet you and help people like you do on such a massive scale. One person at a time for now is better than nothing :). Thank you Gabby!!! You have been a powerful inspiration for years! God bless you!

    1. Wonderful that this post resonates with you, Danoucha! Keep shining your bright light- it sounds like you’re doing graet work. xoxo

  5. Thank you Gabby… I walk everyday 6 miles everyday and listen to you meditation a couple of times a day and during my walk… I listen to it on repeat lol, but it’s so healing.
    Thank you for all your support and help and showing up with all the things you know that can helps us through life.
    I had a brother who committed suicide in 2018 due to mental health , I appreciate from the bottom of my heart your amazing guidance nd support..
    Much love to you, your follower and your team
    Thank you thank you thank you!!

    1. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your experience here. I’m glad the meditations are serving you. Sending you big love. xoxo

  6. I’m currently dealing with postpartum. I’ve been following you since February been feeling stuck, my baby cries all the time. I just finished spirt junkie the meditations are powerful I just started. You are a inspiration to me and feeling I’m starting to heal. Thank you

    1. Thank you for your honest share, Elsie. We’re so glad the Spirit Junkie meditations are serving you. If you’re not already doing so, we recommend seeing a therapist, perhaps one that specializes in postpartum anxiety. This is a wonderful action in self-care. Like Gabby says in the post, she would not be where she’s at right now if it weren’t for her therapist. You may also find it useful to attend a support group for people with postpartum anxiety and depression.
      Also, a while back Gabby did a workshop on anxiety that I’d like to share with you:

  7. Your writing on this topic touched me deeply. Thank you Gabby for sharing your journey and openly discussing metal health. I too suffered from postpartum depression and anxiety. When my daughter was born 20 years ago I thought that this is what all moms experienced. I wanted to take my life…I thought my husband and daughter would be better off without me. The disconnection to my beautiful baby confused me….new mother’s aren’t suppose to feel this way. I felt shame and disgust with myself. Each day was tortuous. Very little sleep, darkness and loneliness plagued our first months as a family. It was not until my daughter’s 8 month appointment that her doctor looked at me and said “How are you?” I unravelled.

    It was time to look at my mental health and wellbeing. In 2000 this was not a topic freely discussed. Over the next twenty years my healing process consisted of meditation, talk therapy, energy healing, medication, nutrition, yoga, became a yoga teacher, did EMDR, tapping and started my own healing business. In the middle of this we were gifted with our third child unexpectedly. He truly was a miracle. I had a very strong spiritual practice, did yoga, daily meditation and I believed with my whole hear, this time would be different when our baby arrived. I had the tools to support myself. Nope, that was not what happened. Post postpartum took me to the darkest loneliest place for the 3rd time (I have another incredible son who is 17).

    How could this be? I can’t take medication now! I’m spiritual! I “SHOULD” be able to heal this naturally! Again life did not seem worth living. I surrendered when my husband gently and kindly made me aware that he could see the space I was in quickly this time and made the appointment with our medical doctor.
    The medication in conjunction with all of the beautiful practices I have learned over the years, saved me. I know your story is going to help many! If I could have come across all this great information and these resources back then, it would have given me clear direction on how to get help without shame or judgement. Maybe you might publish a short book with your story and resources? Thank you for being of service in the highest good of all by using this beautiful platform to bring awareness to a critical topic. With deep gratitude and love~Lauren

    1. Thank you for your honest share, Lauren. So glad this post resonates with you. Sending you big love as you continue on your healing journey! xo

  8. I have been battling depression and anxiety all my life.
    I nursed My mother through it through my childhood years, who am I kidding, all my life.
    I now care for her, she 91 and we live together.
    This has taken over my life all my life.
    I have no children, I was encouraged to stay close and be the fix in my parents marriage so I finally escaped into a relationship for 20 years that ultimately ended in heartache.
    I then found a relationship with another girl who suffered greatly from PTSD from a life of abuse, trauma, alcoholism, who battles every day just as you explain here but has taught me so much.
    I struggle to feel really safe with anyone.
    I felt safe in my 20 year relationship as she would never leave me but I left her three times for other people, becoming bored with our lack of stimulation, although the feeling of safety and a relationship I now do miss.
    After reading this Gabby, and I have followed you for over 2 years now and you have guided me so many times, I now really realise I need help.
    I can’t do it on my own.
    I need to surrender it all.
    I’m tired.
    Tired of feeling alone in all this.
    I crave a better life although my life has stabilised somewhat I want the life I NEED.
    It’s time for ME.
    I want to be HAPPY and working on my life and moving forward, not always fixing problems.
    I want to settle into my life finally @54 with a relationship and friends around me, food, good times…. NORMAL.
    Normal terrifies me I think I’ve never felt it.
    Thankyou for listening xx

    1. Thank you for your honest share, Tracey. I want to honor you for showing up for yourself in this way. It takes courage and strength to shine light on our fear-based patterns and make meaningful change. If you’re not already doing so, we recommend seeing a therapist. This is a wonderful action in self-care. As Gabby shares in the post, she wouldn’t be where she is right now if it weren’t for this practice. Sending you big love as you continue on your healing journey! xo

  9. Gabby,

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your PPA&D story and being vulnerable and honest about taking medication… I too believe medication saved my life.

    I started taking it a few weeks postpartum when I was in the darkest place in my life with anxiety and insomnia. It was difficult for me to accept psychiatric help as I’m a holistic health coach and I felt very ashamed I couldn’t fix myself the “natural” way… I had listened to a podcast you did while I was pregnant and remembered you sharing your story with medication – it helped me moved through that shame and accept the help I needed. I am now 3 months postpartum and thriving.

    Thanks for all the amazing work you do.

    Much love,

    1. Wonderful, Grace. I’m so glad this post resonates with you and that you experienced this energetic shift. Sending you love and healing light as you continue on your journey! xo

  10. Thank you for sharing this. Your note around mental health challenges like depression anxiety and eating disorders not caring about who you are, how spiritual you are or where you come from really hit me. Ive been seriously struggling, every day, with giving myself some grace that I’m doing my best and I have to keep showing up for myself and trying. Some days are easier and some are harder. Today has been harder and this message helped me. When you’ve surrendered, surrender more! Thank you xo

    1. Amazing, Jessica. I’m happy to hear that this post resonates with you and that you’re also practicing giving yourself some grace during this time. It takes courage and strength to show up for yourself this way and it sounds like you’re doing great work. Sending you love and light as you continue on your healing journey! xo

  11. Thank you for speaking out as its so important for reducing the stigma behind mental health. I publish my Memoir last year focusing on Mental Health and started a platform supporting those looking for healing. And I’m doing speaking engagements and developed workshops around depression and releasing guilt related to mental health challenges. During this pandemic I have been doing a Telehealth sessions with a counselor to support me through the difficult challenges. And I blog about those challenges. It’s important to let people know that reaching out for help is not a weakness but a strength. Thank you!

    1. Amazing, Marisa. It sounds like you’re doing great work! Keep shining your bright light. xo

  12. Thank you for sharing your story! You are an inspiration to a lot of people! Sending you a lot of love! ❤

  13. How do you know I’m suffering from mental health issues? I’m so amazed .universe has delivered me what I needed. Thank you so much
    I’m so grateful.

    1. So glad this post ended up in front of you when you needed it, Saleha. May you continue to be guided to the right and perfect resources to support you during this time. xo

  14. Hi Gabby, I am a care taker for my 37 year old sister (since Jan 2019). She suffers from Schizoaffective disorder which is a combination of both bipolar and Schizophrenia. I have witnessed her struggle since we were kids and something wasn’t quite right, to her diagnosis right before she graduated high school, and through her adult life. The illness is horrible and the stigma is sometimes even worse. She is mistreated by those around her because she is different and misunderstood. She is the most beautiful, caring, forgiving person and I love her dearly. The stigma for mental illness is more common than people realize both in personal interactions and the media and it needs to stop. People need awareness of how this hurts. I truly believe that love heals and I do my best to approach her with respect and love every single day…even when it doesn’t make sense because she is worthy of respect and love. Thank you for bringing awareness, Gabby!!

    1. Thank you for your beautiful share, Gloria. So glad this post resonates with you! Keep sharing your love and light. xoxo

  15. What a wonderful source of information on mental health. I believe this will be helpful to everyone!
    Your story was incredible and you are Brave. Thank you for sharing your personal deepest self .
    You continue to help us all. I thank you and honor you!
    Love and Light to us all to get through this together !

  16. Thank you so much for sharing this, Gabby. It means more to me than you know. I’ve struggled with shame over my mental health most of my life. I’ve been on medication for the past 15 years (with a two year break) dealing with severe depression, then PTSD and anxiety. I was so ashamed to go back on medication after the two year break, but I hit a major bottom like you. And when I got back on it 6 years ago, I turned to find other solutions as well, like meditation and building a strong spiritual practice (and finding YOU, yay!). Over the past year I’ve been getting off of my medication and as of last week I am off of it completely. Not because of shame, but more so not needing it as much because of my spiritual practice and intense therapy. I was also curious to see what my body and mind would be like without it. Yes, some days are hard, but I also know I can go back on it at anytime. I have so many amazing resources now!
    Reading how you went on medication too brought me so much comfort and helped get rid of shame that still lingers within me. Knowing that none of us are alone, and we can turn to many different resources. Truly, truly, thank you.
    Sending love and strength,

    1. Your commitment to show up for yourself is amazing, Emma! Sending you big love as you continue on your healing journey. So glad this post resonates with you. xoxo

  17. I absolutely love this and can relate to that postpartum anxiety and insomnia experience! I was ashamed and resisted medication for the longest time as well. I realize it can be some sort of band aid but it’s there to help you get grounded and realize your power. I love your bedtime routine.I recently started something similar and it’s been a game changer for me! I thank you so much for sharing your story as I know it’s not easy at all and can be scary but it helps so much knowing others are out there experiencing the same! I’m in your meditation challenge and am loving it so far! Thanks so much!

    1. So glad this post resonates with you and that you’re joining us for the meditation challenge. May you continue to experience wonderful shifts, Meghan! xo

  18. Thank you for sharing your story and helping to reduce stigma around mental health issues. It is so important that we talk about this so people know they’re not alone in how they’re feeling. Thank you also for giving the contact details for the Samaritans here in the UK… I’m a volunteer for them and believe strongly in the support we offer to anyone experiencing distress or despair. Thank you Gabby for everything you do.

    1. I deeply honor you for showing up in this way, Nicola! Thank you for your service. Keep shining your bright light. So glad this post resonates with you! xoxo

  19. Gabby,
    Thank you for being so vulnerable and for giving people so many amazing tools to live more freely and connected to goodness. I have lost both my husband and my son to suicide so I am very aware of those feelings of anxiety and depression. My daughter and I co-authored a book together last year to share our story and how we are getting through everything. I would love to send you a copy!
    I am a new ‘fan’ of yours and excited to be doing your meditation challenge.
    As a speaker and a coach, I have also begun quoting you and have shared your Super Attractor book with a LOT of people!
    Thank you for everything!
    Carey Conley

    1. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. Sending you light and healing vibes. Glad to hear that you’re on board for the Meditation Challenge! xo

  20. Gabby Bernstein, you are a worrior, a kind one that is love and relieve for mankind. I am so blessed to know you.
    I really find your story brave.
    Love Salima from the Netherlands.

  21. We desperately need advocates like you in the world. The stigma of mental disease and medications is heavy. As a survivor of PPA and PPD, it took me 9 months and a bad bottom to accept psychiatric help and medications because my spiritual path was not enough for healing…. The shame was the most difficult part of recovery. Thank you for being honest, vulnerable and allow us to feel human by sharing your own experience. If it even happened to YOU, our spiritual guru, it must be ok to happen to us lol This is probably one of my favorite posts you’ve ever written and I have followed you for years. The tools are especially incredible. Thank you for being who you are and the messages you put out in the world.

    1. So glad this post resonates with you, Caroline. Sending you big love as you continue on your healing journey! xo

  22. Awesome Gabby
    This has been very challenging g for sure… brings up all sorts of things ,worries etc…
    Thanks for being there for us. Love the meditation challenge!

  23. Hi Gabby
    It was so good to read your post. I also suffered from postpartum anxiety and depression , but it was a long time ago back in 1998. I can relate to everything you said, I was crying as I read it. I am so glad people are talking about it, back when I had it no one spoke about it and I felt so alone.
    Thank you for everything you do , everyday !

  24. I am deeply impressed by your ability to show up boldly in the face of crippling emotional issues; and that you are able to now share this so candidly with others. We have and still need support in all of this, especially during this Corona virus period where all the social fabric of our lives and the economic fabric have been so challenged. Thank you and the inspiration is real.

  25. Great info! I just recently finished phase one of an accredited recovery coach training online and am so excited to get going on helping others like me! You’re always a light and an inspiration! Thank you!

  26. Hi Gabby, Thank you for your vulnerability in addressing mental illness. A couple things you said really addressed what I have been feeling; “Ashamed of being depressed and that I can’t help myself, none of my tools are working” This is a debilitating feeling. I have been “not myself” since summer 2018. I am presently working in a long term care home that is being hit tragically by Covid-19. Everyday more residents and staff are being affected and I am using your 21 day meditation as well as passing it along to them. These times are certainly hard.

    1. Thank you for your honest share, Karin. May you be guided to the support that you need to navigate the thoughts and feelings that are coming up for you. Sending you big love as you show up and serve in this way. May you be divinely protected. xo

  27. You are amazing!! Thank you for always keeping it real. It is your vulnerability and truth that makes you a light!

  28. Hello Gabby,

    I concur with everything I read above. I had poly cystic ovaries and had surgery before I could conceive my first born. My daughter is now 45 years old. I breast fed both my daughter and four years later my son.

    These pregnancies couldn’t have been different. I felt so unwell and so alone on my first born.
    I punished myself physically to breast feed my daughter, despite producing little breast milk.
    When finally I gave in and put her on the bottle, I got well and she continued to suffer severe colic. That lasted until she was three, when a hospital pediatrician diagnosed her with asthma.

    We both suffered separation anxiety and during times of stress this anxiety heightens.
    It took until ten years ago, during a time when my daughter suffered a nasty kidney abscess that a locum female doctor could see my exhaustion, having stayed with her in hospital for over week. It triggered the sleepless nights I went through with her being a baby suffering from severe colic and no doubt struggling to breathe.

    That was the moment I opened up ‘ for the first time’ how I felt a failure as a mother. This GP listened and gave me great feedback and treatment to help me get back my natural sleeping pattern. For years I had used aerobic exercise and poor fueling to keep my weight and Sibo condition in check.

    Today there is much more medical progress and treatment available to help the first time post natal depression mum. When I had my son four years later I was well and he was well and it was a totally different experience. A totally different story to this day.

    Thank for opening up and sharing your incredible gifts and mediation.

    Much Love to you, your husband and Oliver.


    1. Thank you for your honest share, Carolyn. Sending you positive vibes as you continue on your healing journey. xoxo

  29. I’m showing up for myself by meditating with you Gabby, journalling, and creating art for my own therapy. I have a lot of inner child traumas and anxiety that has bec0me more noticeable as I became a spiritual person these past few years. Thank you Gabby for sharing your experience and how you showed us that we are strong even if we struggle with depression and anxiety. This pandemic has definitely shown me that I am stronger than I think. Love and Light! Katie 🙂

    1. So glad this post resonates with you, Katie. It sounds like you are doing great work to show up for yourself. Wonderful. It takes courage and strength to make meaningful change. Keep shining your bright light. xo

  30. I find that daily exercise and meditation is helping to keep me mentally healthy. I also look for ways to connect with others whether it’s through FaceTime or a socially distanced walk in the neighborhood. Music is also a source of joy.

    1. Beautiful, Christy! Thanks for sharing the tools and practices that you find helpful. Sending you big love. xo

  31. Thank you Gabby. I honour your courage and compassion for all and for all your offerings in so many ways. Thank you.

    I was in my fifties before someone actually believed me that something was very wrong. The flashbacks and stills in my mind of the ‘hidden’ childhood massive trauma from which I had disassociated, were hellbent on destroying me. Thankfully I found the support I needed and later I found your books as well.

    I suffered great disapproval, personal loss and loneliness because many closest to me did not wish to acknowledge or know my story. This is something common with those who have suffered great trauma. But, as Joseph Campbell’s story of “The Hero’s Journey” illustrates … the ‘gold’ is that I finally came to my calling and know my purpose. And now, in my mid sixties, I am helping women and children heal from the inside out in beautiful and creative ways, teaching them many things that are similar to what you teach and share, and help them write new stories of their own self beliefs in order to go forward empowered.

    Sometimes you have no idea why things happen to you. And you have to honour the grief and stay open in heart which is an act of daily forgiveness and non-judgement. But the ultimate purpose is for the highest good. And prayer that somehow, somewhere, the highest good will cause all to be well in a way that is best for all, including those you hold deep in your heart.


I am truly grateful for the wisdom and offerings you give. Many blessings.

    1. Thank you for your honest share, Karen. I’m glad to hear that you’ve experienced a shift and are able to find meaning in your experience. Sending you big love as you share your light with others. xo

  32. Thank you. Your story reminded me that sometimes someone can lose a baby a different way. Anyone single who never manifested a baby, but in a therapeutic process created that baby, that soft tender idea that manifested into a job or a creative work or a moment shared of awe in sacred community, when that is lost that is sad too. Dear kind Gabby teachers who lose students when a class ends so appreciate all this work you share. Thank you.

I only recommend products and brands I passionately believe in, but wanted you to know that when I make a recommendation, I may receive a referral fee.


My Proven Tools for Releasing Anxiety & Finding Peace

Free Super Attractor Introduction

Get the 26-minute audio intro


Everything you need to stay
consistent on your spiritual path.

“The next best thing to having
Gabby as your personal coach!”

By using this site, you agree to our privacy policy.

Accept Read More